What a week it has been so far, and not a good one in my book as far as eating and exercising has gone. On Sunday I made country fried steak, fried okra, green beans, rice and gravy made with the pan drippings. Yeah, granted that is a lot of food and a lot of fried food, but I haven't made this since I started this journey over a year ago and I know that having it just once isn't going to kill my "diet" or weight loss. But then Monday rolls around....I hit the gym like I normally do, did a pretty good cardio workout and did my legs...good so far, right? Then I went to my therapy appointment and afterwards I was hungry for lunch...I should have just drove home and had lunch there, but no I stop at Chick-fil-a. I got the chicken strip salad, that alone isn't that bad but I used to much dressing and I had a coke instead of the water I should have had. But I could have just finished the day out well with a good healthy dinner, but did I? Nope, we called in Outback take-out...where I got a house salad and an order of cheese fries of my own and proceeded to eat almost all of it, ugh....what in the world was I thinking? But I let that go as well...but I came into a dilemma with Tuesday and getting my workout in. I had a meeting/class from 8:45 to 2:00 and I knew that I wasn't going to be able to go in the evening since I had a PTA meeting where my daughter was performing with her class...so I thought I would get up at 4:30 and hit the gym at 5 when it opens, yeah...that didn't pan out...but my husband didn't have to leave until after 7 since he had an appointment so I decided to at least get a run in, was shooting for about 45-50 mins, but only ended with 30 total with a cool down...all the crap that I had eaten really messed up my stomach, err! But at least I got something in, right? And the meeting was providing lunch of subway so I knew that I was okay there, then came dinner and I went overboard again...McDonald's: Big Mac, fries and a Coke...err!!! So yeah I'm showing a gain on the scale but the week isn't over yet and I'm back on my regular schedule with the gym and dinner is already planned and had my usual breakfast, so the week won't be a total loss...just gotta push forward. I am making a promise to myself that the rest of this week will be great...I will not go overboard on my eating and I will kick butt at the gym as I usually do....today has been great so far and I will continue to make it great!!!
So I was taking a look at my past blogs the other day and I came across the blog I wrote back in April that showed my weight loss journey in pictures. And all I can say is OMG! That starting picture is so freaking horrendous. I can't believe that I actually thought I looked pretty weighing that much. I can't believe that my husband actually found me attractive then. And I can honestly say that I was not one of the pretty fat girls...I was just plain fat and ugly. Its funny what lies one's self will tell them to help them feel good about themselves. I look at myself then and then I look at myself now and can't even comprehend that they are the same person. I feel like I'm a completely different person now. I AM a completely different person now. But every once in a while I still look at myself I still see a fat, overweight, ugly person. Like today, I know I had just rocked it on the treadmill doing sprint intervals (definitely going to add that to my workout plan ...
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