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Confession Time...

It has been over a year since I have successfully lost any amount of weight. This past week I have seen my weight creep back up close to 190 and its scary. The month of December hasn't seen much time in the gym, 10 days in and I have only worked out twice, though I did get to the gym after my therapy this afternoon. Some the weight gain I have seen I know is due to my period, but still its hard to watch that number go up and up and up. I can happily say that if I haven't stuck to going to the gym as I have been over the year I know that I would have put all the weight I loss back on, and possibly more. 

 I have decided that today I am getting my life back on track...no more eating crap like I have been lately. No more not caring if I get to the gym. I need to get my life back. I'm slowly falling back into the trap of not being happy with anything in my life. I lived like that for too long. The year of 2011 was one of the happiest that I can remember in a long long time. I was finally taking control of my life and how I feel and look. 

 I'm going back to watching, measuring, and counting every calorie I eat. To do so I need to get a new set of measuring cups and a food scale. I'm also going to get some new workout clothes and shoes. Also going to start blogging more. I haven't even blogged half as much as I did last year. It's a good way to get my frustrations out without boring the crap out of my husband and a great way to share my accomplishments as they come.

 Here's to a conquering 2013 and reaching all my aspirations!!!

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