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Fabulous Weekend

I had a fabulous weekend of hanging out with friends and family. I got to hang out with some oh so fabulous ladies Friday morning with yummy treats and great conversation, then Friday night I went out with some more fabulous ladies to Downtown Charleston, went dancing at a couple of clubs, which I haven't done in I can't count how many years...though I did have more drinks than I had planned on, lol. But one of the biggest things I realized Friday night was that I no longer think of myself as "fat"....I couldn't stop looking at myself in the mirror since it didn't seem real that it was me looking back out from the reflection. I was a little self conscious about dancing since I didn't think I was doing it very well but not from my weight....YIPEE!!!! I can't wait to go out with them again. I got to wear a top that I bought back in July with the jewelry I bought to go with it. It's the 1st time that I have gotten that dressed up in a long time. I actually can't wait to go shopping so I can get more dressier clothes.

 Since I didn't get home until about 2:45 in the morning and was back up at 8 I decided not to hit the gym and relax most of the day, took a nap or two, but decided that we would get out of the house around 4 since I didn't want to stay home the whole weekend. I could feel a headache coming on and had planned on taking some meds when we got to the restaurant but I totally forgot that I had changed purses the night before and all through dinner it steadily got worse. I was able to enjoy the one thing I wanted at the restaurant (crab dip, yummy) before the pain became too much and I felt really bad that we had to cut our evening short so I could get back home to take some meds and a hot bath. And stupid me really let it go since I ended up getting sick as soon as we got home, but thankfully the headache was gone by the end of the night, though I did have a headache hangover, nothing that a good night's sleep didn't fix. 

So this morning I was ready to get back to the gym and back to my routine. I decided to go for a run on the treadmill since I haven't ran since Thursday, and I struggled through half of it....I wanted to go for 4 miles but ended up with 3.1, just proud that I didn't stop. Got an arm workout in but wasn't happy with it either and finished out on the bike....over all it was a good workout, not the greatest. Had to stop by the store afterwards to pick up some thing for dinner tonight and as I was walking into the store I had the same thought....I don't feel fat, I feel's such a new thing for me since I have dealt with being fat for some many years....that kinda set the tone for the day, was gonna be a good. Came home and relaxed, read a book and watch too many football games with the hubby, lol. Though dinner wasn't "healthy" it was very yummy and something I haven't made in over a year...ate too much and realized it but not something that will send me in a tail spin...I'll just have to give it just a little more oomph this week...though I'm not sure if I will get a workout in on Tuesday since I have an all day meeting and I just don't feel it when I go at night...will just have to see how it goes that day. 

And since I was feeling so good about myself on Friday I had my hubby take a picture of me in my dancing clothes...hehe (its not the best since it was on my phone.)


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