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Just a Bit Stressed

Waiting games suck big time. We are waiting for our federal tax refund to hit our bank account and according to the IRS website the funds were sent to our bank yesterday. It's only been one day sent the money was sent so there isn't much to be worried about, but somehow someone hacked into our state system and stole information on those who filed state taxes and it can affect our return this year. That's a lot of money to be taken from us and it's what we are using to  jump start our savings for a house in the future along with trips with the family. I really shouldn't worry until next week since that is what the site said but I can't help how my brain thinks. More than likely it will show up tomorrow, at least that is what we are hoping for. But since I really can't do anything about it today I'm going to focus on what is positive. 

After my couple of pity party days I gained a bit of weight but over the last few days it has been coming off, woo hoo! And the weird thing is that I'm not hitting the gym as hard as I have in the past, for instance I didn't get but 15 minutes in on Sunday since my legs were still tired from the week before, only did about 45 minutes on Tuesday ( I went to the gym later in the day than normal and in was packed with a bunch of wanna be show offs [ not the same as those who made resolutions to lose weight this year]). My goal of the month is to get as close to the mid 170's as possible. I have backed off on my running since I am in real need of some new running shoes, which I hope to get really soon. 

Ty and I were talking over the weekend, and he asked me a question that I have been asking myself too. Why was it so much easier to lose the weight when I started back in 2010 than it is this go around. The only thing I can say is that I haven't given up completely. I think some of it is from being dissatisfied in certain areas of my life. Some are in my control and others are in other peoples control. So I'm going to just keep plugging along until I reach where I want to be. Just hoping I don't have another 40 lb set back. 

Later Dayz


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