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Perceptions....

Perception is a funny thing. Especially how we perceive ourselves. Lately I have a different perception of what I look like than what I actually look like. In my mind I still feel like what I did when I was 40 lbs lighter:


When in reality I actually look like this:

It might not be obvious to some but I can see the weight gain in my face, not to mention my whole body but I don't have any full body shots of what I look like now...I'm too embarrassed to take any. I really hate that when I get a look of myself in a mirror it's not the same imagine that I have in my head. It's very disappointing. But I have 2 choices: 1) stay this way and be happy with it or 2) kick my ass in gear and get the weight back off. And I choose option.....2!

This past week has helped a long way in getting the weight back off. I have kept my calories down and got my ass back in the gym. What is also helping is that I'm doing a Dietbet. I put in $25 dollars and bet that I could lose 4% of my starting weight in 4 weeks. I just hit half way last Friday and only have 2.2 lbs to go in 14 days, which is completely attainable. Yes, I would love to win more money than just my $25 dollars back but the biggest pay off is that the weight I lost and getting happy again. 

So here's to losing some more weight and getting stronger over the next couple of weeks, along with getting back to a happy for me weight.

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