My Weight Loss Journey

So, through out this whole process of me dropping this weight my one want, my one hope would be that my legs would slim down. When I was at my highest weight I carried my weight pretty much all over my body, though my stomach was very big, but so were my legs, arms, and face. And as I have dropped the weight I have lost the weight in my face, arms and stomach, but I feel that my legs are still as big as ever. When trying on pants I don't necessarily worry so much as if they will fit in the waist or being too long since I'm short I know I will always run into problems there, lol. No, my worry is if the pants are going to fit over my calves and thighs. My wish is to be able to wear calf length or even knee high boots this fall and with the size of my legs that wish isn't going to be coming true any time soon. Plus I've noticed that I'm either going to need to stick with floor length or above the knee dresses as anything that falls in between make my legs look stumpy...

You know what the best thing about weight loss is: how the damn scale yo-yos back and forth with my weight....NOT!! One week I'm 149.2 and the next 150.2. Yes, I know the reasons why its back up to 150.2 and those reasons are: not really being as careful with my food this week, not getting in all of my workouts and the fact that my period is due to start some time this weekend, hence the not so carefulness of my eating. And yes, it's only a pound...but let me tell ya that pound is hard as shit to get off. I have spent the last 2.5 months working off 10 lbs.   I'm not terribly upset about the "gain" as I know what its from and there's a good chance that it will be gone by the end of the weekend. Yet,  i t's still so frustrating.  I am one of "those" people who is a scale watcher and I have come to accept that. But I don't let the number on the scale determine how my day is going to go. I will still go to the gym and do my workout how I had p...

So I was taking a look at my past blogs the other day and I came across the blog I wrote back in April that showed my weight loss journey in pictures. And all I can say is OMG! That starting picture is so freaking horrendous. I can't believe that I actually thought I looked pretty weighing that much. I can't believe that my husband actually found me attractive then. And I can honestly say that I was not one of the pretty fat girls...I was just plain fat and ugly. Its funny what lies one's self will tell them to help them feel good about themselves. I look at myself then and then I look at myself now and can't even comprehend that they are the same person. I feel like I'm a completely different person now. I AM a completely different person now.  But every once in a while I still look at myself I still see a fat, overweight, ugly person. Like today, I know I had just rocked it on the treadmill doing sprint intervals (definitely going to add that to my workout plan ...

So...I guess it has finally happened...I had someone at the gym today tell me that I look to be at a great size now. Yes, I'm so much further than when I started, pretty much half the size in clothing than when I started, but I just don't feel like I'm where I actually want to be. I thanked her and told her that I have about 20 more pounds to go. I guess I see myself differently than what others see. And I don't see the 240 lb women either...I just see someone who could still use the benefit of losing another 20 or so lbs. I'm not going to lie...I use my BMI as a big motivator...I want to be in the normal weight category and I'm about 15ish lbs away from that, but that would be at the high end and I want to be in the middle so that would mean for my height I need to be 120-125 lbs. But I'm not putting all my wanting just on the BMI scale since I know it doesn't take into consideration of muscle mass and bone structure, but that is where doing the BOD POD...

This afternoon I had a meeting with some of the other spouse's from my hubby's squadron. He has only been with this squadron since the middle of May and they have made me feel so welcomed, they are just a great group of ladies. Kinda off the point of this blog, but had to say it. And since the weather has cooled down a little here in Southern SC I thought this would be a great time to wear my new jeans...I've had them for almost a month but its been to hot to wear them, lol. I hadn't even taken the tag off them and one of them said to wash before wearing since the dye might rub off onto light color fabrics. I was a little hesitant since most know that jeans have a tendency to be tight after being washed and dried...but I put them on anyway and the fit perfectly. I can't tell you how happy I am that I can officially say that I'm a size 8. Some days I don't even feel like that can be true. And at one point during the meeting we went into the break room wher...

I have been sick over the last couple of days....my body was achy and sore, like how you feel after lifting weights when you haven't in a long time, plus all I wanted to do was sleep all day. And then on the way home from my therapy appointment I started to shake uncontrollably. Plus I felt like I had a headache coming on from all the sleeping. I took a hot bath to help relieve some of the soreness from my body and took some Excedrin Back & Body and took another nap. I am so thankful that my two kids are older and that I was able to get the nap in while they played on the Xbox and in their rooms. I did feel bad because I was just not hungry nor up to cooking dinner, plus what I had planned to make the kids are too fond of, lol. But when I woke up I felt so much better...the achy feeling was gone, the headache feeling was gone and I was a little hungry.  I mentioned to my son that I was thinking of doing something light like PB toast and he offered to make it for me...just when ...

It's Monday afternoon and I have had one of those "suck it" days....where everything you think can go wrong does...in retrospect.  Ever since my weigh in on Friday I have slowly gained weight...yes I know in reality that I really didn't gain the weight since I haven't eaten that many calories...except for maybe today and I have gotten to the gym to workout...two pretty damn good workouts in my opinion.  But my feelings today have been pretty sucky. I have felt like crap really...like how I feel after taking a nap in the middle of the day, with a slight headache feeling. Might have been from getting up at 545 with the dog to take him out and then laying back down on the couch to "sleep" for another hour. So I thought that maybe getting to the gym and going for a run would be a way to help rid some of the crappy feeling. Yeah...well that didn't workout as plan. My knees were hurting a bit and my legs felt so heavy, like they were full of lead so I ...

So I just got back from my BOD POD test and I am happy with the way the results are going. I had my first test done on March 4, 2011, second on June 1, 2011 and this is my third.  Stats: March 4, 2011 Weight: 182.890 lbs Fat Free Weight: 111.191 lbs Fat Weight: 71.699 lbs Body Fat Percentage: 39.2% June 1, 2011 Weight: 170.034 lbs Fat Free Weight: 107.324 lbs Fat Weight: 62.71 lbs Body Fat Percentage: 36.9% September 1, 2011 Weight: 154.791 lbs Fat Free Weight: 103.128 lbs Fat Weight: 51.663 lbs Body Fat Percentage: 33.4% Results for 1st 3 months Weight Loss: 12.856 lbs Fat Free Weight Loss: 3.867 lbs Fat Weight Loss: 8.989 lbs % Difference: 2.3% Results for 2nd 3 months Weight Loss: 15.243 lbs Fat Free Weight Loss: 4.196 lbs Fat Weight Loss: 11.047 lbs % Difference: 3.5% Overall Results: Weight Loss: 28.099 lbs Fat Free Weight Loss: 8.063 lbs Fat Weight Loss: 20.036 lbs % Difference: 5.8%  So in the last 6 months I have lost a total ...

Yep its the evil word: Plateau!!! I feel like I have been playing with the same 5-7 lbs over the last 2 months. I knew that getting closer to my final goal that it was going to be harder and harder to drop the weight. But I'm getting quite frustrated at seeing the same weight over and over every week. Yes, I'm happy that I have gotten this far along but I don't believe that this is where I am going to be the happiest. I want to be  in the 120's. I don't think its an unreachable goal considering I'm only 5'1.5" tall. I've already settled on knowing that I won't ever have a completely flat stomach, some to do with being overweight for so long and some to do with having two c-sections, without having to have surgery. I've already accepted that I'm going to have each skin on my arm and thighs, but I do believe that I deserve to be at a happy weight and to me that in the mid 120's.  I am going for my bod pod test today at 3 and I beli...