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Determining Goal Weight?!?

So...I guess it has finally happened...I had someone at the gym today tell me that I look to be at a great size now. Yes, I'm so much further than when I started, pretty much half the size in clothing than when I started, but I just don't feel like I'm where I actually want to be. I thanked her and told her that I have about 20 more pounds to go. I guess I see myself differently than what others see. And I don't see the 240 lb women either...I just see someone who could still use the benefit of losing another 20 or so lbs. I'm not going to lie...I use my BMI as a big motivator...I want to be in the normal weight category and I'm about 15ish lbs away from that, but that would be at the high end and I want to be in the middle so that would mean for my height I need to be 120-125 lbs. But I'm not putting all my wanting just on the BMI scale since I know it doesn't take into consideration of muscle mass and bone structure, but that is where doing the BOD POD test come into play since that tells me how much of my body is fat so I'm working on that also. 

So if I want to get to 120lbs I have just under 30 to go and if I want to see 125 lbs I have just under 25 to go. I honestly don't know what's going to look good on me since I have never been either one of those weights in my adult life, in fact I'm pretty much the smallest I have been ever. Who knows maybe I'll hit 130 and be satisfied. I'm in uncharted territory for myself that its all really a guessing game at this point, at least that's how I feel. I know that I don't want to look like skin and bones but more along the lines of an athletic body.  I have goals of wanting to be a size Small in shirts/dresses and a size 6 in pants/shorts. I especially want to be able to wear calf length boots and right now my calves are still to big, ERRR!!! But on the other hand they might be big but they have one hellva a muscle in them now, lol. And speaking of muscles my hubby was teasing me about my thigh muscles...poking me in the leg and saying "is that a muscle I feel right there"...made me laugh. Hell yeah there's a muscle there...I worked hard for those and the ones in my arms, lol. I'm putting those "pretty boys" to shame at the gym nowadays, lol (I wish). But I did have one who kept looking at me yesterday as I was doing my leg routine...its so weird to have people stare at me as I workout.


  1. I think you should go to where you want to be - wherever that is. There will always be people who are telling you that you're too fat or you're too thin. Don't listen to them. Listen to your body, and follow what you feel.


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