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Life as it is today....

It's been a while since I have written a blog, even though I have been wanting to write one for a while now. But I think last night really set me off. My dad called me last night and we talked about normal family things and then right before we got off the phone he was asking me about my weight loss. He pissed me off by have the gall to get onto me about not getting to the gym as much as I should lately. Telling me how easy it is to gain the weight back. I hate when talks to me like I am a child, I'm 33 years old and have been at this weight loss journey for close to a year and half. Even with the slight gain of about 5 lbs or so I'm still down over 90 lbs over all. All my smallest size clothing still fits without any issues. 


Yes, I know that I have somewhat slacked at getting to the gym the last three weeks or so and I let my food choices not be what they should be and I will take all the responsibility of that. But I haven't given up totally. My life has changed a lot this past month. Our car situation changed so that we are back to sharing one car, so its been a bit of a challenge to nail down a schedule that works for both my husband and I, and I think that we have found one that will work. I'm trying to finish up my schooling by the end of the year so that I can hopefully have a job by the first of the year to help out more with our family and I'm also volunteering more in my husband's squadron, taking over a position that I'm happy that the spouse's have that much faith in me. So I'm a lot more busier than I was a few months ago.I'm also struggling with some sort of cough/congestion, but not letting it stop me totally. These aren't excuses, they are just the way things are and now that I have all of this going on I need to figure a schedule so that I don't let the gym fall to the wayside. I also need to get back to really paying attention to what I'm eating and how much I'm eating. I have had so much success for so long that maybe instead of a plateau my body and mind decided to rebel at the gym. I have said many times that the body is a strange creature. And I still hold onto to that, lol.


I guess my point is that: Yes, I do let people know what is going on with my weight loss and I do look for support when I'm not feeling like its going as well as I want but don't insult me and treat me like I'm stupid. Either support me or keep your mouth shut, making me feel like crap isn't going to help! And as far as my dad goes I'll just lie and say everything is good since I don't want to fight with him. 

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  1. Oh this would have pissed me off too. Girl you have done awesome and parents seem to always see where we have been instead of where we are going.

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