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So pissed....

Once again I won't be spending Thanksgiving with my family and being this close it really sucks big time. But again, my mother was behind it.


Last year (our first year back in 6 years) I had asked if Thanksgiving dinner could be moved up or down a couple of hours so that me, Ty, and the kids could see some of the his family too. But my mom wouldn't even ask my other aunts if that was possible. It wasn't that I was asking to do this every year, just our first year back. I asked why and she said that they were the older people and they got to make the decisions. So we stayed home here in Charleston.


So tonight I get a call from my mother saying that Thanksgiving has been moved from 3 to 1. I was like okay, fine. Then I asked why? She told me that my cousin is doing something with her dad that evening, something like cooking dinner around 5 or 6. Then it hits me, that this is pure BS....that they wouldn't move Thanksgiving for me but they will for my cousin. I got pissed and pointed it out to her that it wasn't fair or right. She said that this was my aunt's decision. I get that, but when I asked my mom wouldn't even discuss it with anyone else....just flat out told me no. And that this was my problem. Fine, if its my problem, then I don't need to be there, no do I want to be around people who will do something for one person in the family but not someone else...which has been the story with my mom my whole life. 


I was really looking forward to going home to see family, enjoy Thanksgiving, celebrate my 10th Anniversary with my husband....but I guess I will figure something else out. At least when we were in Albuquerque, I had the excuse of being too far away....now I just don't want to be around my mother. I wonder when she will see how differently she treats people in her family. 


Silver lining to this: killed my appetite and now won't over eat at dinner. Funny how emotions and stress will mess with your eating habits. 

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  1. call your sister and see if you guys can do something together or just spend it with the hubbies family or just order Thanksgiving from publix and start your own tradition with your kids that will be passed along the older they get and when they have families...everything happens for reason!

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  2. I think we are going to go back to what we have done in the past, spend it with our Air Force family....

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